tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39940509139936434762012-01-25T04:29:30.990-08:00"I don't want to be a person with full hands resting from dreams, but a person full of dreams unable to rest his hands." - Tablo, Epik Highmoonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.comBlogger5331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-43274177805574119522012-01-25T04:29:00.001-08:002012-01-25T04:29:31.001-08:00

dear gwyneth, stay strong.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-26455686096180694992012-01-13T17:23:00.000-08:002012-01-13T17:36:06.131-08:00

I am done being the one compromising. What have you given up for this? Nothing.I am done being kept out on purpose. I need some new friends.I am done with sharing happiness. Because what's the point when some people are not even happy for you.I am done being blinded by the fact that old friends never change. Because they do.I am done with dreaming about you and her. No words of love can keep

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-7046589022745564072012-01-12T05:56:00.000-08:002012-01-12T06:00:08.701-08:00

why is it that i hear of boyfriends who always give in to their girlfriends and are slow to anger.seems like mine is the complete opposite. your temper and stubborness always leads to you saying hurtful things to me in the heat of the moment,and i have never done the same to you no matter how angry i am.then you come and apologize and take those words back, only to do it all over again next

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-89120350577544608932012-01-05T01:46:00.000-08:002012-01-05T01:51:03.789-08:00

if we spent more nights like yesterday alone, your fingers pressed against my arm and working their way down my neck and in between my shoulder blades, we could be heading for heading for some dangerous territory. so thank god we left when we should have, and thank god you're leaving in a week or i might miss you.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-45436948290514388112012-01-01T01:58:00.000-08:002012-01-01T02:03:08.364-08:00

riding in a cab at night alone. watching the streets in kallang shoot past me, and i feel so at peace three hours before 2012. it's nice to have someone special, but at that moment, all that was on my mind was how lucky i am to be surrounded by family, friends, family friends in my life. finally in the last few hours of 2011, my heart was content. finally. happy new year.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-48224984568290276812011-12-15T23:47:00.000-08:002011-12-15T23:55:53.840-08:00

everytime i try to leave something keeps pulling me back.even though i spent most of today thinking about someone else who cares more about me than you. See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin' while I'm with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you Baby I don't know why ya treat me so bad You said you loved me, no one above me And I was all you had And

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-31983340384650679972011-12-11T05:52:00.001-08:002011-12-11T05:54:01.324-08:00

thanks for pretending i don't exist. it doesn't matter that i'm back, it doesn't matter that we haven't seen each other in nine days, it doesn't matter whether or not i come see you tomorrow. because its clear i don't matter to you. is it bad that i am planning for the worst all the time. but that's only what you taught me to do.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-43056304841869463212011-12-10T22:54:00.000-08:002011-12-10T22:55:02.519-08:00

Perhaps you’ll become the Sun and I, the Earth — turning in on myself to revolve around you because you are the light and what keeps me warm. Me rotating around you. Your selfishness so belittling that one day, I’ll become too small to be the Earth. So you’ll take my place, and I’ll become your moon. This is a better fit because some days I’ll appear to be whole but others? I’ll look like I’m

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-15218159210610290932011-12-10T22:24:00.000-08:002011-12-10T22:52:15.224-08:00

那些年, 我们一起追的女孩i'm so nostalgic for my secondary school days in anglican high now. never thought i'd say that. it's not so much the school but my classmates that i miss the most. to date they are still my favourite classmates even though i only spent two years with them. they are the only group of people i can really be myself around, where i know i will always have something to smile, laugh and be

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-79783047907515951932011-11-28T22:26:00.000-08:002011-11-29T00:25:58.798-08:00

PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER. who you are or can be isn't dependent on some boy. i should never let my self worth be dictated by you. last night i was so restless and tossed and turned because all i could think about was you and me pleading for God to please help me. it was like there was a war raging in me. then even when i slept i dreamt of you. even in my dreams i cannot escape. the first thing i

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-66670399235599522532011-11-28T07:08:00.000-08:002011-11-28T07:26:33.747-08:00

so much for reclaiming my heart. gwyneth please be strong.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-13639789978046000672011-11-26T21:15:00.001-08:002011-11-26T21:17:06.580-08:00

did you just try to disregard the entire text about my feelings with an "ok i'm sorry". apologies don't mean shit to me now. in fact i think you just confirmed that you do not in fact care about my feelings at all. fuck you. fuck you very much. why am i still holding on when all that's waiting is more disappointment and letdowns.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-72284091435682616852011-11-22T08:36:00.001-08:002011-11-23T07:46:55.747-08:00

should i have held out for you. did i make the wrong decision. questions i should not be asking before COM207.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-63969435355940723802011-11-22T06:04:00.000-08:002011-11-22T06:18:35.211-08:00

i have decided, tonight. i'm not gonna take this bullshit anymore. time to start reclaiming my heart.Falling slowly, eyes that know meAnd I can't go backMoods that take me and erase meAnd I'm painted blackYou have suffered enoughAnd warred with yourselfIt's time that you won

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-38976303730992592062011-11-22T02:53:00.000-08:002011-11-22T03:21:13.342-08:00

DON'T SAY YOU LOVE ME UNTIL YOU PROVE IT.it makes me want to cry when i realise slowly that maybe you don't really love me.you loved her enough to want to fucking carry her on your shoulders even though she was a bitch to you, you loved her enough to endure every fight that was probably a thousand times worse than the ones we had, you loved her enough to fight for her. these are words written all

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-37015037585145991212011-11-18T00:58:00.000-08:002011-11-18T01:12:58.310-08:00

how do i articulate my thoughts into words. 140 characters or less.if someone truly loved you, they would make time for you no matter what. no half assed excuses. it's that simple. and i'm not even asking for that. i know you were let off early and you were in the area yet it never occurred to you to come and pop by and see how i was doing? would it have killed you to spare a few minutes? but

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-24928496364262674052011-11-17T09:53:00.000-08:002011-11-22T03:14:01.812-08:00

here again to talk about my life. i never feel like you fully understand me. you really don't know a thing about me.you think you've got me figured out. but you don't.and i guess we never did spend enough time getting to know each other first.maybe you wouldn't have liked what you saw. maybe you don't like what you see now.but this is me. take it or leave it. don't tell me how to change and what

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-45307968198512031622011-11-16T21:36:00.001-08:002011-11-16T22:02:48.414-08:00

please let me stop thinking about .because every relationship is different, right?then again every girl wants to be loved more than the previous onei would give anything to be your first your last your everything is it so hard to show me you love me rather than tell?

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-21964933435762989652011-11-16T06:13:00.000-08:002011-11-16T06:20:45.650-08:00

books. music. film. cafes. cakes. tea. my soulmate, would be someone who could enjoy these things with me.drive out of the citysit by my side along the river just to watch the sun setin silenceor with soft instrumental music by sakamoto playing fromipod speakersor in our headstravel. for the experiencedo new things. meet new people.immerse yourselfin culturemuseums dripping with art we've only

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-90413610811969473172011-11-14T23:04:00.001-08:002011-11-14T23:06:55.186-08:00

can't stop thinking about the day i tore my hand away from yours. and can't help thinking that that was the day everything changed. would i have done the same if i could go back in time? i don't know.can't stop thinking about you you you.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-8315799185393126572011-11-14T20:56:00.001-08:002011-11-14T22:55:30.136-08:00

need to practice self control. seriously. so i won't have to feel this guilt.shame, almost? i cannot tell.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-83863332267711987432011-11-14T04:02:00.000-08:002011-11-14T23:06:29.247-08:00

i miss you already. sigh. wish i could tell you that without having to feel afraid of being vulnerable.tell you that i could be with you like this, tangled in each other, everyday, and i'd be happy.but exams exist. school exists. when will both of them ever not exist in my life.always having to make room for these two pricks.this too shall pass. this too shall pass. this too shall pass.times like

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-44439717036265698132011-10-07T09:53:00.000-07:002011-10-07T09:58:27.866-07:00

tonight i: shaved, dyed my roots, put on face mask.in an effort to: distract myself from missing you.because i really shouldn't: get too attached. don't get too attached. i got along just fine before: you. with only my music and my. self.so i don't see how: this should be any more difficult than it was before.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-41269401170873297512011-10-04T02:26:00.000-07:002011-10-07T09:57:44.007-07:00

you could have been my second great love, and we could have had it all. i only hope you know that. ever since the first day we met, i always knew that we would be important in each others' lives. now i see that our potential was never meant to be realized romantically, or at all.the back door was always open for you. but we were never really into each other enough to do anything about it, so now

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-87074012485615162892011-10-02T09:35:00.001-07:002011-10-02T09:36:08.993-07:00

fuck my fucking life. where is the noose from which i can hang myself from. this is the bottom. this has got to be the fucking bottom.happy fucking birthday to me.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-36945377972426225122011-10-01T08:24:00.001-07:002011-10-01T08:25:11.814-07:00

talking to the moontryna get to youin hopes you're on the other sidetalking to me tooor am i a foolwho sits alonetalking to the moon

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-23751636328315778672011-09-28T23:13:00.000-07:002011-09-28T23:19:22.226-07:00

last night just confirmed the fact that i want only you, all of you, everyday, until forever.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-21882333833723775172011-09-26T23:48:00.000-07:002011-09-27T00:07:16.566-07:00

you are such a cliche. most days i don't care but sometimes it makes me want to throw up.to me this is worth everything and more. but to you, a little less every time you go through the motions all over again. another year another girl.rinse and repeat. rinse and repeat. rinse and repeat. whoever said the fifth time was the charm? i don't know whether or not to place a bet on us just quite yet

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-38862215336528476522011-09-21T06:51:00.000-07:002011-09-21T06:53:12.721-07:00

tell me, what did i do to deserve you?i want to remember this moment. and remember it well. when things get hard. remember it all started here. and i felt this way at this very second.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-77873274441254726312011-09-01T09:42:00.000-07:002011-09-01T09:44:11.955-07:00

what scares me the most isn't what you told me, but how i was ready to forgive you instantly.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-80283996381887980812011-08-28T20:55:00.000-07:002011-08-28T21:05:12.393-07:00

i hate myself for letting you in. to places where no one else has gone in not months, but years. now i'm only getting up for the let down. so don't.hold my hand. don't. make promises you can't keep. as for me, i should have known better than to break my own heart. maybe i would have been something you'd be good at.maybe you would have been something i'd be good at. but now we'll never know.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-82737153181380031322011-08-25T21:28:00.000-07:002011-08-25T21:30:16.894-07:00

there's a mark you leavelike a love heart carved on a tree so i'm learning to fallwith no safety netto cushionthe blow

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-92157815872765315982011-08-21T06:53:00.001-07:002011-08-21T06:53:42.843-07:00

fuck this shit, i hate school.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-90554490817133006632011-08-18T20:37:00.000-07:002011-08-18T20:47:19.138-07:00

you and i you you you and i

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-88566429344760781272011-08-18T04:13:00.000-07:002011-08-18T04:14:36.089-07:00

please. don't make me feel like this every other night.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-504169967544945622011-08-15T09:31:00.001-07:002011-08-15T09:32:09.551-07:00

i can't seem to figure us out. or maybe there is nothing to figure out at all.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-63971607766549290622011-08-14T04:09:00.001-07:002011-08-14T04:09:41.950-07:00

i am terrified of what is ahead of me. show me that good things come to those who wait.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-82616237773742530462011-08-11T07:03:00.000-07:002011-08-11T07:04:15.505-07:00

you can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness. please, please, please let me get the modules i want this semester. and that exchange to korea.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-66285833515272749872011-08-05T23:45:00.001-07:002011-08-05T23:45:48.208-07:00

and i am the fool who's falling for it.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-12746656438714648772011-08-04T06:23:00.001-07:002011-08-04T06:23:41.646-07:00

he's just not that into you.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-60106018784882757932011-07-30T09:42:00.001-07:002011-07-30T09:53:34.594-07:00

i will fill this last week with friends. and i won't be moping around at home. i will be okay.i am in love with this movie, Les chansons d'amour (Love songs), which is like that musical-movie Once, except in french.the video below is my favourite scene and song from the movie. life is too short to be sad, so i spend my time watching and rewatching films like this, empire records and ferris

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-13400336014721396472011-07-28T11:55:00.000-07:002011-07-28T12:26:28.616-07:00

gonna lie down in my bed til i fall asleep. please make this week last forever. or at least when i wake up i will be back in seoul, and it's may 23rd all over again.fact: i always cry when liz phair's why can't i comes on.calendar girl, who's in love with the world, stay alive.calendar girl, who is lost to the world, stay alive.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-42406792159863398202011-07-12T10:54:00.001-07:002011-07-12T10:54:48.473-07:00

But I've got a planWhy don't you be the artistAnd make me out of clay?Why don't you be the writerDecide the words I say?Cause I'd rather pretendI'll still be there at the endOnly it's too hard to askWon't you try to help me?- Ellie Goulding

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-30258310308544240582011-06-30T10:30:00.000-07:002011-06-30T10:34:11.957-07:00

i miss you so much it hurts! ):

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-17900642397108062012011-06-07T10:33:00.000-07:002011-06-07T10:34:10.900-07:00

the art of getting by

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-58258872345189920022011-06-04T12:45:00.000-07:002011-06-07T10:35:56.546-07:00

my seoul post is still done up halfway and the withdrawal symptoms are so severe that it has resulted in undesirable consequences lately. i really need to get this off my chest.let's just say, alcohol preceding a night of partying with strobe lights and house music makes me do silly things. now i am in the middle of a re-return, and stuck with the familiar feeling of dread that i always have

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-41943123712302206742011-05-19T04:41:00.000-07:002011-05-19T04:42:41.749-07:00

i asked God to send me a sign, and he did. thank you, i needed it.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-91887703584740322012011-05-12T06:33:00.000-07:002011-05-13T13:36:30.891-07:00

i think it's finally starting to hit me. the empty room next to the kitchen now that her bed has been cleared out. my grandma is gone. it all happened so fast. 3 exams and a funeral in two days. now that i've got a little break before my other 3 papers, it's starting to sink in, and i can already feel the tears coming. but nothing is going to bring her back, and i remember how much i wanted her

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-13814403261636897572011-04-23T10:54:00.001-07:002011-04-23T22:54:52.060-07:00

decided that it's not even worth the blog space. i hate talking about these things like they matter when they don't.Close enough to start a war, All that I have is on the floor, God only knows what we're fighting for, All that I say, you always say more, I can't keep up with your turning tables, Under your thumb, I can't breathe, So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, No, I won't ask you,

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-75014414346612676142011-04-23T05:04:00.001-07:002011-04-23T05:09:09.920-07:00

oh my god i really need to get started on my paper. but first, i shall create a to-buy list for seoul.- V World- VVIP - Strong Baby Photobook- Intermodulation- Portraits of Youth- 3hree Voices II - BB Cream- C.L.O.T.H.E.S.to be updated...

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-55318895342341646492011-04-22T10:03:00.000-07:002011-04-22T10:30:59.323-07:00

finally came to the conclusion that i could never like you because you go so obsessively by the book and you're turning out to be an arrogant know it all.that and also the fact that you could never like me because even though you claim we may be alike in some ways, i am the complete opposite when it comes to work + life ethics. i could never be like you and nor will i allow myself to be belittled

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-36462151690930817632011-04-21T04:58:00.000-07:002011-04-21T05:13:44.299-07:00

we fight. we talk. we make up.but there are still so many unresolved feelings. i'm starting to think that you say these things not because you care, but because you're so damn self-righteous. i'm not going to let you think of me as a sitting duck. am i acting this way because you've successfully called me out on every single thing i'm afraid to admit to myself? either way, it wouldn't hurt to be

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-31522741665285788532011-04-16T08:53:00.000-07:002011-04-16T09:01:01.210-07:00

i love this commercial with all my being. four of my favourite japanese actors in london being adorable as hell.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-35817092198794350592011-04-14T10:56:00.001-07:002011-04-14T13:52:35.166-07:00

feeling depressed about Clana. my god i have been following this show, or more specifically, this couple eversince i was 12 or something. even if Lois was written as Clark's soulmate in the original comic isn't Smallville supposed to be something else entirely? about the life of high school/college Clark Kent. and in the comics Lana was his highschool sweetheart and first love. so why even

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-16475254486190138602011-04-14T05:37:00.000-07:002011-04-14T05:39:30.455-07:00

so when i'm in seoul bigbang will be there for dream concert and jyj will be in america. ok. i don't know how am i supposed to feel about this.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-34322633897949960402011-04-13T07:13:00.000-07:002011-04-13T07:14:10.356-07:00

Desiderata- Max EhrmannGo placidly amid the noise and haste,and remember what peace there may be in silence.As far as possible without surrenderbe on good terms with all persons.Speak your truth quietly and clearly;and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant;they too have their story.Avoid loud and aggressive persons,they are vexations to the spirit.If you compare yourself with others,you

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-76834318271983988532011-04-13T02:35:00.000-07:002011-04-13T07:11:52.614-07:00

i was really tempted to go through this week without charging my phone. the battery was flat, and that meant nobody could contact me. lots of friends are always complaining about how i am possibly the worst person in the world when it comes to replying texts or picking up calls. and it's true. it's not that i avoid them, i just can't be bothered checking my phone at all. i guess i just don't like

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-4981863350060958832011-04-08T11:42:00.000-07:002011-04-08T11:48:27.913-07:00

"My brother was a sweet young man who wanted to be in control. In the end, he simply wasn't.None of us are. We all dangle from a very delicate thread.The key is not to let go." this man is incredible. he's my role model. it's so rare to see someone pursue journalism because he is truly passionate about the world and its people. we need more people like him. reporters with heart.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-7466918887684067192011-04-07T09:57:00.001-07:002011-04-08T10:44:13.220-07:00

i think that love is beautiful. after all this while, after all the disappointment in life and my cynicism, i am still a hopeless romantic at heart. is it foolish to believe in love?

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-46670516602506524332011-04-06T03:58:00.000-07:002011-04-06T04:02:17.351-07:00

I want to change the world, instead I sleep.I want to believe in more than you and me.But all that I know is I'm breathing.All I can do is keep breathing.All we can do is keep breathing now.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-36368950144778325192011-04-05T05:53:00.000-07:002011-04-07T05:02:29.173-07:00

i give my guy friends in university alot less credit than they deserve. sure, we may never be able to be friends the way i am with my girlfriends from highschool, but they make school easier and at times even happier for me. there may be things i do not like about them, but i guess there's a reason we five came together the way we did. we found each other in the most unlikely of circumstances

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-72753446148537559542011-04-02T10:16:00.001-07:002011-04-02T10:17:36.370-07:00

who was i before all of this? i can't even remember the person i used to be. did i have different dreams and expectations? did i have a life outside the internet? what did i do with my free time? and most importantly, was i happier?i'm starting to think i was happier. because nothing can compare to feeling like this every night.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-61565093707378465342011-04-02T10:00:00.000-07:002011-04-02T10:01:25.284-07:00

And now I'm all alone again nowhere to go, no one to turn towithout a home, without a friend, without a face to say hello toBut now the night is nearAnd I can make believe he's hereSometimes I walk alone at nightWhen everybody else is sleepingI think of him and then I'm happyWith the company I'm keepingThe city goes to bedAnd I can live inside my headOn my ownPretending he's beside meAll aloneI

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-47766985812288493112011-04-01T09:26:00.000-07:002011-04-01T09:28:04.726-07:00

worst april fool's day ever. and i got trolled about things that i actually cared about, so yes it sucked.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-81634159583864267152011-03-29T08:25:00.000-07:002011-03-29T08:27:13.385-07:00

a certain revelation tonight has thrown off my perception of our group dynamics completely. i will keep this to myself for now, and hope for only good things to happen. the world is changing and people are almost always not what they seem. right now i'm just trying to figure out who i am in all of this, what my values are, and what do i believe in?

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-36062670724047004192011-03-28T02:14:00.000-07:002011-04-06T04:03:45.266-07:00

save yourself the trouble and don't come if you're gonna be so anal about everything.don't forget that as fans, we have feelings too. really need someone to talk to tonight. the sound of the night is overwhelming from where i am and things i once thought i could look forward to are falling apart one by one.how i imagine my life would be like after university:i'd be in tokyo, teaching english.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-81683745983540002562011-03-25T08:00:00.000-07:002011-03-25T08:02:20.183-07:00

i want to get married and have kids...but only the kind that never grow old.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-52432337569718705722011-03-24T03:33:00.001-07:002011-03-28T06:38:30.540-07:00

thinking about dating on earth and how i would be so happy to spend the rest of my life with yoochun like that. simple and uncomplicated.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-87286375978180478792011-03-19T01:21:00.000-07:002011-03-19T01:23:09.669-07:00

i have an unspoken rule where i only reblog pictures of yunho and changmin before the 2010 release of toki wo tomete.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-48952893860943670142011-03-18T07:36:00.000-07:002011-03-18T07:50:50.792-07:00

this is what one of the sunbaes advised Yunho in 2008:"Your group must live in order for you to live."and in the same show, Yoochun was talking about stalker fans and 3 years later, he's still tweeting about it now ):

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-90604249144413084482011-03-15T12:34:00.001-07:002011-03-18T03:54:47.365-07:00

lmfao i am now recording my voice to audition to be a host for JYJ internet radio.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-77632488404462916542011-03-12T08:24:00.000-08:002011-03-19T10:06:46.708-07:00

To watch:J-dramas: Love ShuffleNodame Cantabile Special in EuropeSPEC (!)J-movies:ParadeNaoko69 Kamikaze GirlsDeparturesSuicide Circle (if i can handle)Battle Royale (ditto above)K-movies:The King & The ClownE-movies:MementoLost In Translation (rewatch)Donnie DarkoR/T: I tried watching both In the Mood for Love and 2046 by Wong Kar Wai but somehow couldn't get into them as much as I wanted to. I

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-5675114653531247092011-03-11T07:49:00.000-08:002011-03-11T08:13:11.258-08:00

so my plan to keep to under one sweet drink a day isn't working out too well. i'm sore from yoga as well but i look forward to taking up either kickboxing or returning to ballet during the summer break. tickets to seoul have just been confirmed and i pray with all my heart that i use this as proper motivation to get through this semester and not short-changing myself academically.this recess week

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-63786787692509347422011-02-26T10:53:00.000-08:002011-02-27T00:10:53.516-08:00

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-55347626444354963032011-02-21T08:45:00.001-08:002011-02-26T08:51:53.201-08:00

i miss my friends from temasek. wonder if i am missed as well. one person in particular seems to have forgotten my existence altogether and it kinda sucks because i'm trying.there is a university friend i am awkward with even though we are in the same social circle, i don't know how to make it better when we have the least opportunity to spend time together.achievable goals, i am working towards

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-69186964116086936932011-02-19T03:09:00.001-08:002011-02-19T03:09:22.467-08:00

hope is a dream that never sleeps.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-86698332916896828152011-02-18T21:03:00.000-08:002011-02-18T21:14:45.299-08:00

i miss the english breakfast i had every morning in Oxford. i miss the winter quiet of places like these that are usually bustling with tourists in the summer. i miss hearing the sound of my boots knocking against cobbled streets.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-46641112687405574942011-02-16T22:11:00.000-08:002011-02-16T22:12:57.629-08:00

BE COOL GWEN BE COOL.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-13900808694902710912011-02-12T03:54:00.001-08:002011-02-12T04:05:39.536-08:00

would like to watch this again in closer detail.my favourite off the soundtrack:

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-12344862762458278312011-02-11T22:07:00.000-08:002011-02-18T19:26:38.028-08:00

rare moments of positivity only happen on the weekends when i'm home and everything is rainbows in the east ^^ not even gonna let the heat bring me downthings i am good at:1. Googling. I can find anything and everything.2. Amateur acting and voice acting. Been in two of my friends' short films, one as a deaf girl and the other as schizo. don't know what that says about my personality but...

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-50024527965113047162011-02-09T16:14:00.000-08:002011-02-09T16:15:19.456-08:00

the only thing i can do now is to trust God, and put my faith in Him that he will provide.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-53783468515102820802011-02-09T07:54:00.001-08:002011-02-09T07:59:25.043-08:00

breaking out in rash again, now its all over my body. can't sleep well in school either. can't sleep beyond 3 hours at once. just keep stressing about how the fuck i'm going to magically do well in boring, science electives i am forced to take. i thought university was supposed to be about what i wanted to do? instead i still have to take all this shitty things i don't want just to fulfill a

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-51086495145159022902011-02-08T01:25:00.000-08:002011-02-08T19:50:21.785-08:00

the only two mildly attractive people i'd like to get to know better seem near yet so far, accessible and completely unaccessible at the same time. timing plays such an important role. and i know the only reason why the attraction has held for such a long time is precisely because of the lack of interaction and mystery of the unknown.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-31231304838044813232011-02-02T10:52:00.000-08:002011-02-02T12:14:20.621-08:00

The scores of people brushing past meAnd the love flowing past the gaps between my fingersI've let it all past too easilyI guess nothing is foreverThe stress and painLike november rain it falls- Ignition, Epik HighNobody knows the pieces of a glass stormthat are blowing inside your heart.— One, Epik High“What is nothing to you, can be love to me.”— Tablo (Epik High)"I got an ass for brains, so

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-9894914498436983352011-01-28T14:23:00.000-08:002011-01-28T14:28:58.296-08:00

have to stop making bad decisions depending on my mood. wow unnecessary travel on trains to town and being in public really pisses me off, but when i'm at home i feel lonely. lol self. my family cares less and less about me these days, i don't blame them though- since all i have spilling out of my mouth is unhappiness.i hear the 6am rain and i wonder if i should finally go to bed or just stay

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-18201105359863719002011-01-27T13:41:00.000-08:002011-01-27T13:53:18.203-08:00

my favourite character in a musical, ever. since i first watched this on DVD when i was 12. i caught Les Miserables and Phantom of the Opera in London West End (an experience so vastly superior to the esplanade) but she haunted me the most because this time (now that i'm old enough) i realised that the reason why i like her so much stemmed from how much i can relate and identify with her. i cried

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-49523537974042809522011-01-27T13:23:00.000-08:002011-01-27T13:37:46.760-08:00

saner and maybe more insane than i look. more bad days than good now that january is coming to an end.school is insufferable. people are insufferable. i just want to curl up with Norwegian Wood and stay in bed forever and ever, only getting up to bathe and eat.i guess i should be grateful that i'm in university even, and in communication studies, something i've wanted to do for so long. exams

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-73649927331234312522011-01-22T09:23:00.001-08:002011-01-22T10:02:40.768-08:00

1. i really want to give changmin and yunho a round kick in their faces for the way they've been responding to questions regarding jaejoong, junsu and yoochun. i know i've been wanting them to come out and say something for a whole year but not like this, just never like this. how can you worship the company that hung up on one of best friends in his time of need? who twisted and turned the story

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-24339350704258598882011-01-18T12:44:00.001-08:002011-01-19T13:26:31.230-08:00

tell me if you're feeling strong, strong enough to love someone.struck me today that i should probably accept that in life, people will always come and go. i shouldn't try to change it because i can't. i've just gotta embrace it. i guess that's gonna be one of my resolutions for 2011- not that they ever amount to anything. these people i meet in my lifetime, i really can't expect each and every

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-77339016155790615692011-01-14T10:04:00.000-08:002011-01-14T10:27:32.665-08:00

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-60346060291284721372011-01-13T10:21:00.000-08:002011-01-13T10:38:17.850-08:00

lmfao every stan always has this irrational belief that his or her bias is under appreciated but it doesn't mean you should proclaim it all the damn time like it's something to be proud of. take your butthurt and gtfo.can i talk to a person who understands how i feel about this mess and doesn't get defensive over their biases? it seems people like that are non existent these days.i'm sorry if i

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-46831943583807508082010-12-31T10:56:00.001-08:002010-12-31T11:34:50.799-08:00

that last post was really...obsessive. lol.i wish the tears would fucking come already so i won't have this sickening feeling in my stomach. it's 2011 and i need to let go of 2010's ghosts. when i pack for a trip i always start dreading it, no matter the destination. i love to travel but i hate plane rides and tomorrows' is gonna be 14 hours long. i hope my mother and i don't grow tired of each

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-13448651650450430062010-12-28T11:36:00.000-08:002010-12-30T13:29:17.404-08:00

just thinking about life in general. i'm still irrationally worrying about things when i thought i would be happy staying in all day at home on the computer or going out with friends. i think way too much for my own good and fall in love too easily, but retaining that feeling is something else entirely. i keep making the same mistakes, i hope this time the outcome is better at least.

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-82140350202865495022010-12-24T12:59:00.000-08:002010-12-25T03:54:18.464-08:00

it's always christmas dinner with the family and lord of the rings movie marathon this time of the year.i have received almost no christmas gifts this year, the least in my 19 years of life. it's a little sad, but i'm okay because i received the best christmas gift ever from Santa/God this year in form of a dream on christmas day itself.i dreamt about yoochun and jaejoong over at my house for a

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-87413271612259834962010-12-19T20:40:00.001-08:002010-12-20T09:54:31.003-08:00

dear god, jaejoong junsu and especially yoochun look so fucking gorgeous in their recent shoots it's criminal.just look at this beautiful creature. i'm going to marry him one day.can't sleep, so i'm up adding thoughts to this post. the more i listen to "Nine" composed by Jaejoong, the more I fall in love with it. the base melody is so pretty and it's even more meaningful to know that Jaejoong

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-6936255555244534362010-12-19T07:35:00.000-08:002010-12-19T07:48:46.916-08:00

drowning myself in retail therapy again. and i'm sniffing away like a sick dog.acting like exams are over when they're not. plus have i mentioned how terribly difficult university exams are? especially in my communications course. i thought i was doing okay with coursework but then bam! i sat for my papers last week and almost died from the difficulty. now i'm just hoping i can pass and the

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-9037973663921130272010-12-18T01:44:00.000-08:002010-12-18T02:22:58.474-08:00

OH SHIT I THINK I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. and i just discovered that i have an existing tumblr account at goodbyegravity.tumblr.com which i don't even remember creating...

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-15024170512611507402010-12-09T06:00:00.001-08:002010-12-10T05:47:20.927-08:00

should take a page out of jennifer lopez's book in how i met your mother and constantly sayNO.to my thoughts that just keep running to you.is it possible to get an actual fever from exam anxiety? because i've been feeling nauseous this whole week and i wish there were something that could make it better. i keep having this constant fear of handing in a blank piece of paper and everyone else

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-21445334151963686202010-12-08T01:45:00.000-08:002010-12-08T01:49:15.018-08:00

moonsparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14915746205178938989noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3994050913993643476.post-78962359149333110192010-12-08T00:12:00.001-08:002010-12-08T01:13:50.263-08:00

should i camp at school for more reasons than one. thinking about the west makes me want to hurl but i'm so bloody unproductive at home that it may do me some good...Still, this was on the order of a minor miracle—running across someone you express your feelings to so clearly, so completely. Most people go their entire lives without meeting a person like that. It would have been a mistake to

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